final project

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           This final project for Digital Art has been an interesting and terrifying adventure. I started out with no idea on what I wanted to make. I brainstormed through everything and could not commit to an idea. I originally wanted to make a video relating to my emotions. I thought that I should tackle the question “what is my biggest fear?” I then realized my biggest fear is spiders.. and I immediately changed that idea! I then tried to make a list of ideas for my final, but I kept running into the issue of how I am going to execute it. This really hit me hard, I felt as if I was never going to be able to finish this project, which really sent me into a panic. After talking with you about ideas, I had to just tell myself that I need to just pick an idea and do it. The quote you said to me during our talk really stuck in my head, “ Don’t be afraid to fail, failure can also be beautiful.” That quote really influenced me to just let go of being perfect and create something. I finally picked an idea out after that; I realized when I looked in my notebooks, I make the same doodle every time. I make these 3d boxes and connect them I kept asking myself "why do i make these? what is my obsession with them?" . I decided I was going to recreate this doodle into an actual object.

 I thought about what I was going to use and I stuck with my original thought of toothpicks. While making my project, I ran into my biggest obstacle, how do I stick these toothpicks together? I went out and bought originally Gorilla Glue and started to make the 3d boxes. I then realized that gorilla glue took too long to dry for this project. I ran to CVS and bought the next glue that dries extremely fast… SUPER GLUE! Unfortunately, super glue can glue together everything but toothpicks. I then went into a panic and had no idea how this was going to work. I remember thinking to myself at that moment that I am going to fail my final and it is going to look awful. I almost had a mental breakdown at that point. My friend then suggested a hot glue gun she had. At that point I felt hopeless and just tried what I could because all I could think about was what you said, “failure can be beautiful”. Once I started trying the hot glue I realized it actually was working. It was crazy how my mood changed in a span of 3 seconds, I felt like I was bipolar going from near tears to excited in three seconds! I started to make the squares and they actually started to turn out, so I decided I would video tape what they really looked like because I felt as if a picture didn’t give it enough detail to see how 3d it really is and how it was made.

        After the process was over, I made my project into a video. I felt as if this was the best way to present it. I didn't use any voice because whenever i am drawing them i feel like my mind is totally blank and there is nothing going on in my head. I wanted the watcher to just kind of have a weird feeling when they watch it and feel awkward. Becoming obsessed with something and not realizing you are obsessed is in my eyes, awkward. That is what i tried to portray. My thought on this project was probably not the best for me. For the first time in my life I can say I had “writers block” but as an artist. I experienced many different emotions during this project. I became so frustrated with myself that I almost just gave up on this project. While rewatching my video, I am to the point where I don’t really understand what I made. I am hoping that in the future I will watch it again and really understand why I made what I did and what it really meant. I assumed that during this project i would figure out why i make the doodles i do, but I failed to find that out during the process. Hopefully, I can look back and find the answer someday. I felt as if this project really pushed me in a difficult way. Part of me would rather take a chemistry exam here, instead of redoing this project! Overall, I am satisfied with my final and hope you understand it and enjoy!

final project ideas...

For my project i have two ideas..
the first one is that i would like to make a video of me going and holding a spider. Spiders are my biggest fear so i would try and see how that video would work out. For the video i was thinking about recording myself the whole day before i go see this spider. Even thinking about spiders gives me anxiety.
The second one is i was thinking about using this app called Vine and making a cool video using the effects on it. Im not sure what to do it on but i was thinking making it look as if im doing magic but actually im just manipulating the camera... Im not set on a topic yet but those are the main ideas ive come across.

failure

My biggest failure this semester was not challenging myself artistically. I could have reached far out and made awesome work. I could have done a lot better work if I dedicated more time to the class. I learned from this failure that I need to push myself more artistically and go outside of the box because after learning about many different artists, they are all bizarre in their own way. I also learned that because of this failure it makes me want to push farther and make better work. My biggest success this quarter was actually learning that I enjoy making and looking at art. I learned that I enjoyed making art and learning how to use Photoshop. I really liked my video in the antique shop. I am the bomb.com when it came to that video! Also that Photoshop just requires a little effort and you can express yourself through it in many ways. When going through the art museum in Toledo Ohio, it sparked something in me that I did not know I had. I surprisingly really enjoyed seeing the different art. If I could redo a project I would probably redo the word project because I feel like I could have been more artistic about it and not taken the word as it was. I would change the words because the words I had gave me no inspiration and it was hard to force the inspiration. I also would have given myself a little more time to work on this project outside of class and actually made what I wanted to instead of being very basic with my approach.

mp5

My word was SHORTEN. I had a difficult time with this one, but I used a banana as my inspiration. When I think of shortening something I think of taking away. That is why I have a video of a banana being eaten and slowly going away. I don’t think this was a good project for me. I had a hard time figuring out what word to use out of shorten or impress. I originally wanted to do a video of a basketball player doing a sweet dunk on a rim and shortening the rim each time and then have the video in the end be a little kid’s toy basketball hoop with a little kid dunking it. But…. That didn’t work out… because I didn’t have a friend who is that good at basketball like Blake griffin. Because that didn’t work out, I decided to go the easy route… banana. Maybe if I had different words I would’ve been more creative, but I could not think of anything that would be interesting to do for those words… #artisticprobz