final project

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           This final project for Digital Art has been an interesting and terrifying adventure. I started out with no idea on what I wanted to make. I brainstormed through everything and could not commit to an idea. I originally wanted to make a video relating to my emotions. I thought that I should tackle the question “what is my biggest fear?” I then realized my biggest fear is spiders.. and I immediately changed that idea! I then tried to make a list of ideas for my final, but I kept running into the issue of how I am going to execute it. This really hit me hard, I felt as if I was never going to be able to finish this project, which really sent me into a panic. After talking with you about ideas, I had to just tell myself that I need to just pick an idea and do it. The quote you said to me during our talk really stuck in my head, “ Don’t be afraid to fail, failure can also be beautiful.” That quote really influenced me to just let go of being perfect and create something. I finally picked an idea out after that; I realized when I looked in my notebooks, I make the same doodle every time. I make these 3d boxes and connect them I kept asking myself "why do i make these? what is my obsession with them?" . I decided I was going to recreate this doodle into an actual object.

 I thought about what I was going to use and I stuck with my original thought of toothpicks. While making my project, I ran into my biggest obstacle, how do I stick these toothpicks together? I went out and bought originally Gorilla Glue and started to make the 3d boxes. I then realized that gorilla glue took too long to dry for this project. I ran to CVS and bought the next glue that dries extremely fast… SUPER GLUE! Unfortunately, super glue can glue together everything but toothpicks. I then went into a panic and had no idea how this was going to work. I remember thinking to myself at that moment that I am going to fail my final and it is going to look awful. I almost had a mental breakdown at that point. My friend then suggested a hot glue gun she had. At that point I felt hopeless and just tried what I could because all I could think about was what you said, “failure can be beautiful”. Once I started trying the hot glue I realized it actually was working. It was crazy how my mood changed in a span of 3 seconds, I felt like I was bipolar going from near tears to excited in three seconds! I started to make the squares and they actually started to turn out, so I decided I would video tape what they really looked like because I felt as if a picture didn’t give it enough detail to see how 3d it really is and how it was made.

        After the process was over, I made my project into a video. I felt as if this was the best way to present it. I didn't use any voice because whenever i am drawing them i feel like my mind is totally blank and there is nothing going on in my head. I wanted the watcher to just kind of have a weird feeling when they watch it and feel awkward. Becoming obsessed with something and not realizing you are obsessed is in my eyes, awkward. That is what i tried to portray. My thought on this project was probably not the best for me. For the first time in my life I can say I had “writers block” but as an artist. I experienced many different emotions during this project. I became so frustrated with myself that I almost just gave up on this project. While rewatching my video, I am to the point where I don’t really understand what I made. I am hoping that in the future I will watch it again and really understand why I made what I did and what it really meant. I assumed that during this project i would figure out why i make the doodles i do, but I failed to find that out during the process. Hopefully, I can look back and find the answer someday. I felt as if this project really pushed me in a difficult way. Part of me would rather take a chemistry exam here, instead of redoing this project! Overall, I am satisfied with my final and hope you understand it and enjoy!

final project ideas...

For my project i have two ideas..
the first one is that i would like to make a video of me going and holding a spider. Spiders are my biggest fear so i would try and see how that video would work out. For the video i was thinking about recording myself the whole day before i go see this spider. Even thinking about spiders gives me anxiety.
The second one is i was thinking about using this app called Vine and making a cool video using the effects on it. Im not sure what to do it on but i was thinking making it look as if im doing magic but actually im just manipulating the camera... Im not set on a topic yet but those are the main ideas ive come across.

failure

My biggest failure this semester was not challenging myself artistically. I could have reached far out and made awesome work. I could have done a lot better work if I dedicated more time to the class. I learned from this failure that I need to push myself more artistically and go outside of the box because after learning about many different artists, they are all bizarre in their own way. I also learned that because of this failure it makes me want to push farther and make better work. My biggest success this quarter was actually learning that I enjoy making and looking at art. I learned that I enjoyed making art and learning how to use Photoshop. I really liked my video in the antique shop. I am the bomb.com when it came to that video! Also that Photoshop just requires a little effort and you can express yourself through it in many ways. When going through the art museum in Toledo Ohio, it sparked something in me that I did not know I had. I surprisingly really enjoyed seeing the different art. If I could redo a project I would probably redo the word project because I feel like I could have been more artistic about it and not taken the word as it was. I would change the words because the words I had gave me no inspiration and it was hard to force the inspiration. I also would have given myself a little more time to work on this project outside of class and actually made what I wanted to instead of being very basic with my approach.

mp5

My word was SHORTEN. I had a difficult time with this one, but I used a banana as my inspiration. When I think of shortening something I think of taking away. That is why I have a video of a banana being eaten and slowly going away. I don’t think this was a good project for me. I had a hard time figuring out what word to use out of shorten or impress. I originally wanted to do a video of a basketball player doing a sweet dunk on a rim and shortening the rim each time and then have the video in the end be a little kid’s toy basketball hoop with a little kid dunking it. But…. That didn’t work out… because I didn’t have a friend who is that good at basketball like Blake griffin. Because that didn’t work out, I decided to go the easy route… banana. Maybe if I had different words I would’ve been more creative, but I could not think of anything that would be interesting to do for those words… #artisticprobz

MP4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMJYXVtlUNw&feature=youtu.be

My project was video taped in an antique store in Indianapolis, Indiana. At first this project was going to be a scary theme but after playing with the video on imovie I realized I wanted to be in the mind of someone with ADHD. I decided to make the video in fast motion because that’s how I feel someone with adhd would feel in an antique store with so many different things around him or her. I used the song Domonique by the singing nuns for the song over my video because I first heard this song on American Horror story and loved it! It made me feel crazy when I heard it and that’s why I used it in my video. It is such a bizarre song! I used the footsteps in my video to show how big the antique store really was. To show there was more than one level to it! I think my final piece creates confusion and weird emotion to people who watch it. I really liked this project actually! I felt like it gave us enough room to really get creative about our videos! I liked having to go around a random place and videotape. At first I didn’t enjoy this project because it wasn’t turning out as I planned but then I took a different twist on it and it turned out better!

blog 9

            The article “Cathedral” by carver was really empowering. He wrote about how he met a blind man. The author in the beginning is not excited about going to visit this man, who happened to be his wife’s friend. This was the first time the author met this blind man. It was very sad to learn that the man lost his wife. When the man stays at the author’s house he helps change his life and view life in a different way, which was very emotional for me.

            This article was truly amazing and reminds me of the song lyric from Wicked “People come into our lives, for a reason, bringing something we must learn”. I believe this was an event that was meant for the author to experience. Maybe it was to teach the author to have an open mind and not judge people because of a disability or flaw. I really enjoyed this article